I always value my relationships. Every last one that I have. Whether its a friendship or someone I’m together with. Its because they take so long for me to build, it kills to see them come crashing down on me. And that is why it hits me so hard. I hate losing those I care about. I hate change. I hate knowing that things could never be the same. I could be the biggest ass hole and say I don’t care. I don’t give a fuck, and there’s no feeling there. But there’s no one I fool but myself. It takes every inch of strength to swallow every last drop of pride that I have, to admit that I truly miss you. I miss what we had. I miss you being that one. Whoever you were to me, I miss you meaning something. And it still hurts because you never lost that meaning.
Regardless of what you’ve done. I’m beginning to lose faith in people. I always look for the good in them but everyday they make it harder. I don’t understand how anyone can take someone’s life and still be able to wake up the next morning and go about their day, with no regrets, no guilt. It’s crazy how some go from innocent children to murderers. What happened ? Why? FUCK you all . Next, think about taking your own life instead of someone else’s. If you feel they don’t need to live, then why should you ? I love my cousin and it’s sad that you guys couldn’t think of that before brutally killing him. And that still wasn’t enough for you ? You had to bring his body to a fucking train track ?! Enjoy living your life with this on your chest. I’ll pray for you .
* Rest In Paradise Reginald Jerome Davis Jr. ; I love you with all my heart. With a smile & heart bigger than all of us.. <3*
Infatuated by the fruit of your beauty,
I could help but want to take a bite
The sweet smell that traced your lips
luring me closer for the taste of your kiss
The lonliness hidden behind your brown eyes,
The center of a heart so pure
Words deceiving with honesty found in each lie
Everything was wrong,
but then everything was right
Poisoned with addiction , I ate you to the core
when all I ever wanted was just one bite.